What I Really Want to Say....

What I Really Want To Say

What you mean? Are you fucking kidding me?

Just like that huh.... Wow, you showing me something new.

No its not just the way it goes; Its not just something I have to deal with.

What you mean I dont have no choice. I made the choice to be with you so why dont I have a choice now.....

Dont act like you hurt now. Your the one making life decision.

Oh I believed it when you said it the first time. But now lets take a look at the facts.

I can go back to all the message and conversations we had and point out everything you told me.

You said it to me and I believe every fucking word that formulated. Every fucking thought processed.

What am I suppose to do with this love that was created between us two?

There isnt a storage room in the world that could store this love I have for you.

Look see there you go again... Ok so it dont matter and you done with it? I mean really?

So what is it then? What we going to do? (smh) So there is no more me and u or no us? Damn...

Oh you hit me with the we can be friends punchline...

No thats not good enough for me. And its shouldnt be something that you should be so quick to settle for.

I cant believe this. You loved me yesterday and today you like me as a friend?

Is this how all your relationships end? Love em, Fuck em, then like em? Do the big and expensive things then leave em?

Do you really hear the shit coming out your mouth right now? Is this how you really feel?

All this came up over night... Im sure your going to tell me it did and hope I believe that bullshit too.

Just like when you said you love me or when you said you would never leave me or when you said you wont let go of me.

If only you knew the true words that came into mind right now. No Im going to hold back from saying it. So you want to know? You really want to know!

If I could go back to when we first met; my first words would be

DONT FUCKING TALK TO ME!!!

If I could go back to when you first told me you love me I would say

FUCK YOUR FAKE ASS LOVE!!!

If I could go back and relive the moments when you shared your feelings with me; I would say

FUCK YOUR FEELINGS THEY DONT MEAN SHIT!!!

If I could go back to when you first touched me; I would say

DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME!!!

If I could go back to when you said you wanted to marry me; I would say

FUCK MARRYING YOU!!!!

If I could go back to when you said you wanted to have bare my seed; I would say

FUCK THAT BULLSHIT!!!

Now since you tell me this now and we being so honest.

Since you wanna be friends after all this time.

Since I have to less then 30 days to move out from you heart and return the keys back to its owner

Since I will never have anybody like you in my life ever again; Im going to say

FUCK YOUR HONESTY!!!

FUCK YOUR FRIENDSHIP!!!

FUCK YOUR HEART!!!

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!

(....As he looks deep into the picture....)

Damn why cant I just let you go...

(as the tear drops on the picture)

(Curtains close)

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